Harriman Personal Log - on the Frigate

While at dock, it was decided to send several runabouts on a search mission of the area. I assigned several officers to quadrants, as well as taking one myself. I had D'Kar with me as well as two Ensigns. While on our mission, our ship encountered much difficulty. Systems were knocked out, including helm. Our ship was headed directly for a large star. I tried assisting D'Kar, but we were not able to bring our power back up. Communications with other ships was also down. I determined the only way to bring our ship to a stop was to drop the warp core and did so. Afterwards, we were picked up by another runabout. Other runabouts were not effected as ours. Upon arrival on the frigate, Captain Forrest called for a meeting to discuss what had happened. I had no answers, but that was not acceptable. I assisted in some research of what happened and enjoyed doing so, but am rather bothered that I lost the ship. This makes two ships that I have been at the helm. First the Challenger and now the runabout? Am I losing my edge? I think that I will have to throw myself back into my studies. I have no one to turn to now…Ian and Darby seem to want their distance now. At first I couldn't decide between the two of them, now I have no one. But perhaps that is why my edge is gone. Have I been distracted?