Lt Cmdr Harriman Personal Log

I had another blackout incident......
I wanted to meet with Darby so I sent him a message to meet me for dinner. While waiting for him (yes, I arrived 30 minutes early so not to miss him) a waitress had hit me in the head with her tray... I can sort of remember what happened next, but it's still a little foggy. Darby did arrive, but I didn't recognize him anymore than LtJG Fisher and I couldn't remember much... I left the dining area and found myself in my quarters. I know things that D'Kar knows (his family, engineering, et) and things that I, Carol, know. It seems that the counselor was right... Lt D'Kar's traits, personality, etc has been transferred to me when we were transported.

Capt Forest briefed us on a new mission, which would take us back to where Kon, Decius, D'Kar, and I had gone. After the Captain had mentioned that I may be on the away team, I recommended that its not logical that I be on the away team, as I may be recognized and put the mission and others in jeopardy. The Captain seemed taken aback with this recommendation. I found out later that it wasn't the recommendation, but my use of vocabulary that confused him. It seems that he thought I had "switched" to D'Kar's personality. Later, Commander Albright removed me from duty until a personality transference could be completed. I didn't make matters any better as I left the meeting with Commander Albright at that time, returning to the helm on the bridge. Commander Albright had me escorted to the brig. I was placed in the bridge for insubordination. I requested the counselor's prescence and she arrived. She spoke to me slightly and then spoke to Commander Albright and LtCmdr Pren. Finally, I was released, however I was not returned to duty. My questions regarding the transference were not answered as well.

Capt Forest visited me in my quarters. He agreed with removing me from active duty, citing concerns for the Yorktown and crew. If I were to switch personalities during my duty at the helm, it would put the crew at risk. He did ask me to report to the bridge during red alert status to assist the helm.

While the away team was gone, I assisted on the bridge as requested. I found this quite difficult, as I feel that my ability is in question. I am also concerned about this personality transference. What if something goes wrong and my ability to pilot is lost? However, I also have to think about D'Kar. I'm quite sure this is not how he wanted to live... but his abilities could help Starfleet even more, making me more well rounded for Starfleet matters. I wonder what his father would want done? Perhaps that is who should have the decision... Although I'm not sure I'd abide by it. I am still concerned that I would be effected negatively.

All this has happened, and I haven't had time to try to explain it to Darby. I'm quite sure he has given up on me, but I have to hold out hope.